Have you ever wondered why you even try?
Did someone take you down and laugh when you cry?
And you still don't know how you even survive?
Well... I feel you bruh. These things happen to me also.
I know it's a bit cliché to write about my problems and rant here in these blog.
Hard Times by Paramore hit me right in my feelings. The lyrics are so relatable.
Yeah you could say that I'm the happy-go-lucky girl whenever you see me on social media or in person. I can get mad, be grumpy or something that can be rude to other person but hey I'm a human. I also have limits.
I would say I'm used to being used, like taking for granted. An option to someone. Let them push me down and let it be. I don't complain at all and it feels like normal to me na.
But sometimes I ask myself
Why did you let them do this to you?
Are you sure you're immune to this?
Is this really normal?
And I came to my senses, this isn't right.
Every night I always cry because they keep blaming those mistakes to me which I didnt do anything that's relate to their problems, I'm the oldest sa magkakapatid.
And since I'm the oldest syempre sa akin sisi. Hindi ko rin naman masisisi sila dahil kapag nakagawa ka ng mistake of course, hindi na sila maniniwala pa.
There's also time before the school ends.
They keep talking about me because I'm the teachers pet of blah blah and I was hurt. I act infront of them like it's no biggie prob.
To all people out there who's been suffering from depression like me.
I know it's like you're living in hell everyday because every night you cry behind those pillows and wake up every morning feeling okay which you're not. But I'm telling you everything's gonna be okay, be brave.
Don't let everyone push you down.
Don't cry when someone bully you.
Don't do anything reckless because your loved ones will be affected if something happens to you.
There are many problems that you will encounter when you're older and be prepared.
Laugh it off if you make mistakes, we're not perfect. Accept your flaws hehe.
We're gonna hit the rock bottom! 😀
Life is a bitch!
You can do it! We can do it!